...and Grace, too

Today one of my students came to me and asked what “Grace” meant in Japanese.

I had to do a double take. I paused so long before asking him to repeat the word that it may well have been a triple take. You see, I’m used to the students in this class asking me to translate words like “masturbation.” And when I refuse, they take vengeance by screaming the word at the top of their lungs in class and in the hallways, knowing only that it’s something they probably shouldn’t be saying.

That this student, in the midst of such a hellish class, would come to me and ask me about a word as delicate and nuanced as “Grace” is evidence that he has not yet succumb to the cruelty, racism, or, possibly worst of all, indifference that the majority of his classmates currently espouse.

My own grasp of Japanese being only moderately more advanced than his grasp of English, I had no idea how “Grace” translated, so I tried to build it out of the words I did know: kireina, jyozu, yasashi, but for all my listing, they weren’t “Grace.” I tried to relate it to something I knew he was into: baseball. I told him that if he was all these things when he played, then he would know “Grace.”

The exchange really struck me, and I don’t know why. Maybe it’s the danger of asking a completist English major to translate a word for you. Maybe it’s my affection for this particular student, for his obvious brilliance beneath a defeatist attitude that has been built up around him by the real troglodytes in his class.

Or maybe it’s the words: the perspective created at the place between two languages, wherein the deep, attenuated meanings of a word can explode in your head like a box of kittens. And there’s you, surrounded by their magnificence, and utterly powerless to round them all up and push them through the door into the next language.